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  With a daring look, my sister does exactly what I just did and quickly finishes her drink, slamming it down on the table. Then begins to approach the crowd of dancers without waiting for the rest of us.

  “Ok then.” Tasha laughs and the three of us join her.

  Erica happily runs over to us, probably because Scrappy doesn’t want to join her on the dancefloor. “He says he keeps his moves in the bedroom.” She explains and we all laugh. I can totally see Scrappy saying that.

  A couple of minutes into dancing I begin to loosen up, this is exactly what I need. I’ve only had one drink but it’s enough to loosen my head and my thoughts. My body moving to the rhythm and my arms in the air.

  I think I’ve danced to about four songs when I feel familiar arms encircle me and I don’t bother hiding the smile that reaches my face. I should move away from Ryder and tell him we can’t do this, but I allow him to pull me against him. We dance together, rubbing our bodies against one another and don’t care to worry who is watching. My parents know now, so does it really matter?

  Apart from the fact that I’m now pregnant and should tell Ryder we’re over before we’ve begun. That he’s only just coming round to the idea of being a couple and that the thought of a baby is going to terrify him. I should tell him but right now I don’t want to. I want to savour this moment and let myself have this. Just one more night.

  “I’ve missed you.” Ryder growls in my ear and tingles run all over my body.

  I exhale, leaning back against him even more. “So have I.”

  Although he’s been away on a job for a week and I’ve ignored all contact from him, I’m not lying. I have missed him and it’s going to be so hard to say goodbye forever, especially if I’m letting him back in again. After all my hard work these past seven days.

  “I thought you would have pushed me away.” Ryder adds, sounding slightly annoyed and he squeezes me in his arms.

  “Why?” I laugh and as soon as the words are out of my mouth he spins me to face him. My eyes are wide and I’m feeling slightly dizzy.

  “You’ve ignored me all week.” He grumbles, “do you know how fucking worried I’ve been?”

  I’m taken back but before I can argue Ryder is talking again.

  “I had to call your dad to make sure that you were alive.”

  “My dad?” I ask, looking around to see if I can spot him. Why wouldn’t my dad have told me that?

  I do notice that Ryder and I have most of everyone’s attention, including my scowling brother brooding in the corner. Fucking hell.

  “Yes Pops, I called your dad because you fucking ghosted me, after what we spoke about I thought everything was set for us two.” He deeply frowns and my guilt creeps in. “We good yeah?”

  I should say no. I have to say no. Why am I not telling Ryder no!?

  “Yeah.” I whisper and at my answer Ryder nods, resuming our dancing and making me feel amazing. He kisses my neck, my jaw and along my shoulders as we show everyone that we’re no longer hiding. I shouldn’t have told him yes. I’m keeping a huge secret from him!

  I’m so conflicted. I want him. I’ve craved Ryder for so long but fought my feelings and now here we are! I finally have my man but I’m full of dread and guilt.

  “Fuck you look so sexy Pops.” Ryder appreciates from behind me and my body responds to his compliment, I relax into his arms and melt into his kisses.

  I open my eyes to see we still have a lot of eyes on us. Zane is next to us, dancing with a girl I don’t know and sure enough when I scan the room for my sister, she doesn’t look happy. She needs to be careful, if she wants to keep her lust under control.

  “Yo brother,” Zane calls to Ryder. “You know what you’re doing?”

  His eyes look from me then back to Ryder, asking if Ryder has thought this through with such a public display. I think Zane is just worried he’s about to lose his wingman. I’ve heard the stories of their nights out together but I choose to forget them.

  “I’m good.” Ryder nods back to Zane. “I’m with my girl,” Ryder spins me to face him again. “I’m with my girl.”

  I’m stunned. Sure, we’re making a statement right here tonight, in front of a busy clubhouse, even when I promised myself things wouldn’t work out between us but right now, it feels good. In fact, it feels fucking amazing. Not to sound too cringe.

  Ryder’s statement almost sounds like a question, so I nod and a smile appears on his handsome bearded face. He looks to Zane, “I’m fucking good brother.” Then he looks back to me. “I’m dancing with my girl.”

  I’m grinning wide like a fool and I don’t care who sees it. A buzzing fills my body and I want to wrap myself around him. I feel an impulse to cling to Ryder and never let him go, to let him tie me up and do with me as he pleases but I hide my feelings and keep my urges at bay. I don’t want to chase Ryder away, not yet anyway. I’m having crazy thoughts and that only means one thing, I’m turned on!

  With a sneaky smirk, Zane leaves us alone to dance but I’ve only got one thing on my mind and the hardness that I can feel rubbing against me lets me know that Ryder potentially feels the same.

  “Ry?” I look up at him and the dark look in his eyes has me struggling to hold back. I could fuck him right here and I know how fucked up that sounds with family and people that are so close they might as well be blood related. “Have you fucked anyone else?”

  I’m slightly worried that he’ll feel angry that I’ve asked him, but I’m relieved when he smirks a little as he shakes his head.

  “Pops, I haven’t looked or touched anyone since I sent the video.” I hate thinking about that video, fucking someone else, but at least he took my threat seriously. I will not share him, If Ryder wants someone else, he’s welcome to them but he won’t be coming back to my bed. No fucking way! Especially knowing there is a secret hiding in my tummy, it’s all or nothing.

  Without a second thought I stand on my tip toes and stretch to kiss him. Ryder smirks with a chuckle and kisses me back with force. An appreciative moan escapes me but thankfully due to the loud music nobody hears but the two of us. Ryder is louder though but he surprises me, breaking our kiss and lifting me into his arms.

  “I can’t take no more of this!” He yells and carries me like a baby in his arms on the way to his room. Everybody has their eyes fixed on us.

  “Well there’s nothing like putting on a show.” I roll my eyes and Ryder laughs.

  “Let ‘em watch.” He winks. “You’re my woman and they better get used to it.”

  His words do funny things to my insides and butterflies dance within me the closer we get to his private club room.

  As Ryder carries me into his room, he kicks the door shut with his boot and then drops me onto the bed. I laugh as I land, watching him lock the door to make sure we don’t get interrupted. I watch with greedy eyes as he slowly walks towards me, removing his jacket and shirt. Fuck me, I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of seeing Ryder shirtless. Speaking of, “Get naked.”

  Ryder’s eyes widen. “Someone’s eager.”

  I feel my cheeks burning as I giggle in embarrassment. When I looked up the signs of pregnancy, a rise in libido was one of them. It’s either due to me being pregnant or the fact that I just really want Ryder, right now. Let’s go with a bit of both.

  “I’m sorry.” I cover my face as I continue to cringe.

  The bed dips a Ryder sits beside me and he removes my hands from my face. “You’re so fucking beautiful.” I take in a deep breath, trying to calm myself as I resist reaching out and rubbing my hands all over him. “But don’t say sorry for what you want, tell me.”

  “Tell you?” I remove my eyes from his chest and into his dark eyes. I swear I witness Ryder’s eyes switch from dark brown to almost black. It’s pure sex.

  Ryder leans closer, his eyes travelling from my eyes then to my breasts. My nipples harden at his stare, even though Ryder can’t see through my top. “Right now I want to kiss that sexy mouth of yours
while my hand disappears under your skirt.” He reaches over to me, his finger sweeping my hair from across my forehead. Why is it always the smallest gestures that turn you on the most? “I bet you’re already wet.”

  Goose bumps cover me and my voice seems to have disappeared because I don’t say a thing as Ryder does exactly what he’s promised me. As his fingers glide on top of my underwear, rubbing my sweet spot on top of the fabric I tilt my head back and groan. Ryder chuckles but I choose to ignore it.

  “Take them off.” I order and as soon as the words come out of my mouth it’s done. I’m on my back with Ryder ripping off my pants from under my skirt. Now I’m the one to laugh as Ryder throws them over his shoulder and they land somewhere on the floor.

  “I think you should get naked.” He kneels before me and with a smirk, I match his wishes.

  “And you.” I get to my knees, copying Ryder’s position and I whip my top over my head, throwing it in the direction that my pants went. Hearing a low groan come from Ryder spurs me on pull down my skirt. I sit back down and Ryder helps to pull it from my legs and now I lay in just my bra. “Well?” I question him, eyeing his jeans that should be off by now.

  With a boyish smile, Ryder stands from the bed and unbuttons his jeans. I can’t take my eyes from him as they fall to the floor, his erection pushing against his boxers. I swallow hard, wanting to see his cock and have a taste. I reach for him but Ryder backs off. “Bra first.”

  “So demanding.” I laugh. “But I think you should do it.”

  He thinks for a second before returning to the bed, reaching behind my back and undoing the clasp like a pro with one hand. As soon as my breasts are bare his mouth is on my nipple, teasing with his tongue as his fingers pinch the other. My pussy pulses with need. I reach for his boxers, wanting to remove them to squeeze his cock. My hand slips inside, eagerly grabbing hold of his hardness and we both groan. This is what we have both been craving for so long! I’ve been denying myself this since the first time and now as dive straight back in, I forget why.

  “Ryder.” I whinge wanting his cock.

  He lets go of my breasts and pushes me back to lay down, regretfully letting go of his cock. I reach out, silently begging for it to be back in my grasp but Ryder grins mischievously. Shaking his head, Ryder spreads my legs and as his eyes settle on my wet pussy my body heats. His dark eyes devour me and I wiggle with need. Ryder laughs a little, his eyes back on me as he lowers himself, his mouth getting closer. With one slow and luscious swipe of his tongue my head falls back and a loud breathless moan escapes me. I become louder as Ryder feasts and his finger begins to play with my clit. He drives me crazy. My back arches off the bed as he brings me close to edge, so dangerously close with every single wet lick and kiss.

  “Fuck me Ryder.” I order.

  “You want my cock?” He growls from between my thighs.

  “Yes!”

  But Ryder doesn’t give me what I want. Instead he continues to lick my pussy and it’s amazing but I need his cock inside me.

  “You told me to tell you what I want and I want you dick!” I shout. “Now!”

  Ryder stops, leaning back and I have a clear view of him now. Perfectly naked and stroking his own cock. Watching him please himself is so fucking hot! I crave him even more. Ryder slowly crawls on top of me, his dick pressing against my wanting pussy. I want him inside of me right now but Ryder’s making me wait.

  “Ryder.” I groan, sounding more frustrated this time.

  I’m wet and more than ready for him, but Ryder continues to smirk down at me. Fine! If he’s not going to do something, then I will. I begin to move, thrusting and rubbing on his cock. The friction causing me to scream pleasurably. It’s still not enough but having his dick on me feels so good.

  All of a sudden Ryder pushes and his cock is inside of me. I gasp loudly and my eyes roll back. Groaning, I smile up at Ryder. “Finally.”

  Ryder’s smile slowly fades as his cock pulls out of me and slowly thrusts back in. Both of our heavy breathing missing together. His thick cock stretching me so beautifully inch by inch. I grip onto his shoulders, digging my nails in as my pleasure builds. This seems to do something to Ryder as his thrusts begin to get faster and more urgent. My moaning is louder than ever and my legs securely wrap around him, holding on and still wanting more. Ryder growls, gripping on to my hips and tilting me perfectly, hitting the right spot as his cock pounds into me.

  “I fucking missed you.” He quietly adds. “Dreamt of you, thought of you with my own hands on my dick and I’m not letting you go now.”

  I can’t think of what to say. What do I say to that?

  Ryder’s eyes meet mine as he continues. “You’re mine Pops, you can’t escape me because I can’t fucking get enough of you. No more games.” He shakes his head and I get closer and closer to the edge, his words are just what I need. “Just me and you!”

  His last words are louder and thank god because my screams are almost too loud to hear anything else.

  Afterwards, we just stay as we are, looking at each other. Ryder still hovering over me and his cock still inside. I can’t believe we’re back here again, but this time is different. This time I look at him and I’m excited and I wonder what’s next. Everyone out there knows what we’ve come back here for. We’ve basically let it known that we’re together and I’m happy about that.

  As Ryder leans down and gives me a sweet kiss before he leaves the bed to clean up in the bathroom, I watch him and remember that I have a part of him growing in my belly and excitement that I was just feeling now turns to dread because when Ryder discovers I am pregnant I don’t know what’s going to happen. I don’t know how he’s going to take the news.

  ***

  The next morning my body aches a little, the bottom of my back feels slightly sore from where I was arching my back and enjoying myself.

  “Do you wake with a smile on your face every morning, or is that just for me?” Ryder’s husky morning voice has my eyes springing open. I stare into his face, my embarrassment bringing heat to my face. “Don’t be embarrassed,” he smiles, bringing his hand up to my face and sweeping away my hair. “It’s fucking cute.”

  I roll onto my back to try and calm myself a little, the sight of a naked Ryder is too much to handle first thing in the morning. I want to jump him already but the small feeling of sickness in the pit of my stomach has me second guessing my thoughts.

  “What’s up?” Ryder asks, sensing my change of mood.

  “Axel.” Is all I have to say and the mention of my brother’s name has Ryder wearing a slight frown. He must have seen our little show last night, but if he didn’t other people for sure told him how Ryder carried me away.

  “He won’t be a problem today.” Ryder rolls on his side to face me and sees my questioning look. “He’s been called away on a job.”

  “Last night?” I ask.

  “This morning.” Ryder corrects me.

  “Then, why haven’t you gone?” I ask, Ryder is always by my brother’s side when it comes to jobs for the club.

  “Told them I was too busy.” He smirks, letting his hands explore under the covers. Ryder’s fingers find my breasts and circle my nipples.

  “Oh really?” I giggle, trying to fight the urge to climb on top of him and ride his cock.

  Ryder removes the covers from me so he can see what his fingers are up to. “I wanna spend the day with my girl instead.” He then replaces his fingers with him mouth, sucking and licking my nipples and I’m a melting mess in seconds.

  Before Ryder can take over again, I remove his face from my boobs and push him down so he’s on his back again. “My turn.”

  He watches me with a satisfied smirk as I settle between his legs and grip onto his rock hard cock. Ryder lets loose of a grunt and it sounds sexy as fuck. With a greedy smile, I take his cock in my mouth and let my talents do the talking. One hand massages his balls whilst my other pumps and strokes his cock. Ryder’s groans and thrusts of his h
ips spur me on and I groan around his dick. I could do this all morning but Ryder has other plans. Very quickly, he reaches down to me and hooks his hands under my arms, pulling me up against him and removing my mouth from his cock. Ryder kisses me with so much passion and his cock pushed against my pussy. I begin to grind against him and Ryder groans, thrusting inside of me and I match him. Moving my hips and riding his cock, controlling the way that our bodies move.

  Ryder breaks our kiss. “Good morning.”

  I laugh. “Very good morning.”

  Chapter Eleven

  Poppy

  This past week has been so different but so much better. So exciting and tiring all at the same time and not just because of all the sex we’ve been having but because the longer I spend time with Ryder, the guiltier I feel. I really want to tell him but I haven’t been able to bring myself to yet, I just can’t find the right moment. Or I just don’t want to ruin what we have right now. We’re having too much fun for me to mention that he’s going to be a dad in around nine months time.

  Ryder has taken me to work and been there to pick me up every time this week too. We’ve had every meal together including dessert and I’d be very surprised if there was someone in this club that doesn’t know what’s going between us.

  I’ve managed to keep my sickness and other pregnancy symptoms away from Ryder and considering how much time we’ve spent together I’d say that’s pretty amazing. Thankfully when I was sick in the toilets at work Lulu was there with me so I didn’t need to explain.

  I’m dreading Axel finishing whatever job he’s on at the minute and coming home. He knows about us I’m sure because the amount of calls I’ve ignored is beyond enough. I won’t answer him though because I know all I’m going to hear is him shouting and telling me what I can and cannot do. Ryder being at the top of that list. He’s not going to let me be with Ryder like I am right now. He’ll be watching over us all the time and that’s after he kicks the shit out of Ryder for being with me.

  My parents are completely fine with me and Ryder though. My mother beams with pride every time she sees together, I always knew she wanted me to hook up with a club brother. She never would have said the words out loud, but I know my mother. My dad also seems happy with me being with Ryder, I even saw them having a drink together the other night which told me he’s ok with us. In my dad’s world that means he’s passed whatever test and approves.