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  “Nanny.” My mum corrects her and this time, my mum starts to cry. “How far along?”

  “I don’t know.” I shake my head and she cups my face in her hands.

  “Right, let’s get you a doctor’s appointment and we’ll go from there.” I nod in agreement.

  “I haven’t told Ryder.” I admit shamefully. “I just never seem to find the right time.”

  “Ok.” My mother is still smiling and there’s not a hint of judgement coming from her. “Nobody else will find out before he does. He’s he father after all. Until then, you have me and your sister. We’ll be by your side now and when Ryder is back home. I’ll be with you to hold your hand until Ryder’s here to do it himself.”

  “Thank you.” I cry.

  “We got this.” My mother holds me tight and I’m left wondering why I didn’t tell her sooner.

  For the rest of the day my mum can’t talk about baby things related. From shoes to pushchairs, she’s so excited. When my dad comes home though, she doesn’t speak a word and I’m thankful. She meant what she said, Ryder needs to know before anyone else.

  When I go to bed that night, I send Ryder a text to let him know how excited I am to move in and that I can’t wait to see him and repeat our last night together before he left for his job.

  I go to sleep the happiest I’ve been since he left but I can’t wait to have him back here with me.

  Chapter Sixteen

  Poppy

  My mum made me an appointment at the doctors and both her and Lulu are coming with me. My mum told me that nothing will happen today, just a talk about things and then they will get me onto the midwife list. I’m so glad I have her because I don’t have a clue. I wish Ryder was here with me going through this but hopefully he will be back soon and can come to these appointments with me. I would wait for him but this needs to be done. My mums question of how far along I am threw me, so I need to take these first steps for my baby’s sake.

  In the waiting room I sit in the middle of my mum and sister, my legs bouncing with nerves as I wait for my name to be called. My mum puts a hand on mine to try to reassure me but I’m so nervous. It’s the beginning of it all.

  I’m eventually called in and I take the closet seat to the doctors desk.

  “Ok, what can I help you with today?” She asks kindly, glancing at the three of us.

  I shuffle in my seat. “I’m pregnant.”

  “Ok.” She nods, turning to her laptop to type away. “And how are we feeling?”

  “I have really bad morning sickness but it happens all day sometimes.” I answer and the doctor turns to me again with a caring smile.

  My mother leans in close to me. “She means if you’re keeping the baby or not Pops.”

  My eyes widen and I feel stupid. “Oh sorry, yes I’m keeping the baby.”

  “Don’t worry, you’re doing great.” The doctor grins and then clicks and taps away at the laptop again. “So, can you remember when your last period was?”

  I think back but I’m always useless at this, so I get out my phone and open the App I use to help me keep track of it. Once I tell her that she then asks more information on my periods.

  “Ok,” she returns to her laptop. “So it looks like you’re roughly around twelve to thirteen weeks pregnant.”

  “Oh wow.” My mother gasps and I turn to her.

  “What’s wrong?” I panic.

  “Nothing.” My mum quickly calms me. “I was only four weeks with you two and seven weeks with your brother.”

  I turn to the doctor. “Is that ok?”

  “Of course.” She nods. “Most women come in before they’re ten weeks pregnant but it’s nothing to worry about. You will hear from a midwife soon with your first appointment and they will look after you from there.”

  She wishes me well and then I’m leaving, in the car returning home.

  “You’re three months along already.” My mum whispers as she drives. “You’ll be having your first scan soon then.”

  “Will I?” I ask because as I’ve already stated, I have no clue.

  My mum nods. “Yeah you have one around twelve weeks to make sure everything is starting off ok.”

  So I’ll get to see my baby soon? Ryder has to be home for that. I need him there.

  “I can’t believe I was so dumb when she asked me how I was.” I hide my red face in my hands.

  “To be honest, I would have answered the same Pops.” Lulu answers from the back of the car.

  “So when will I hear from the mid wife?” I ask.

  My mum shrugs. “I don’t know, it’s been a while since I went through this, it’s a pity you can’t ask one of the girls at the club.”

  The thought did cross my mind but Ryder needs to know first.

  “I don’t think very long though seeing as you’re further along.” She adds.

  “What happens at the appointment?”

  “Bloods and probably a lot of the same that happened today really.”

  “Blood?” I repeat and my mum laughs.

  “Yeah just to check yours and the baby’s health.” She makes out it’s nothing.

  Suddenly I’m not looking forward to the midwife appointment.

  ***

  It’s been a few days since my doctors appointment, I’ve just finished my shift at the shop and gotten home when my phone starts to ring. I jump to attention and when I see Ryder’s name across the screen I quickly answer. It’s a video call and I look like crap but I don’t care because I get to see his gorgeously handsome face.

  “Hey!” I answer, running into my room for some privacy.

  Ryder’s stubble has grown into a short beard now. It just adds to his good looks. “I’ve missed that face.” He winks.

  “Do you know when you’re coming back yet?” I eagerly ask. “It’s been too long.”

  His face breaks into a wide smile. “Tomorrow.”

  My heart literally begins to pump faster. “You’re not joking?”

  “No.” He laughs. “I’ll be back in the afternoon, so I need to be waiting for me at 6pm dressed for me to take you out.”

  “Where?”

  “You’ll find out.” He grins. “But bring an overnight bag, or make it a weekend bag because I need to reconnect.” The wiggle of his eyebrows makes me giggle but I’m also horny. Get you a man who can do both.

  ***

  Today has been so slow! I’ve been watching the clock all day and it hasn’t done my impatience any good. I’m just so excited to see Ryder later. My cheeks hurt from smiling so much!

  I’ve been thinking about my outfit all day and I think I’ve settled on a black floaty skirt with a slit coming up to the left thigh paired with a nude coloured body suit that does amazing things to my boobs. My hair has been annoying me all day while it’s been down so I’m going to have it either in a ponytail or a bun. I’ll decide when I get to it.

  When I finish work I have a hot bubble bath and shave every inch of my body for any antics that I may be getting up to tonight. I even paint my nails, black of course. I take my time doing my makeup, wanting to look perfect for Ryder. I give myself a dramatic winged eyeliner look and settle on a ponytail with studded earrings.

  I made sure to pack my bag before my bath and even though Ryder told me to pack for the weekend, I packed enough outfits for four nights because you can never be over prepared. Especially when it comes to staying at your boyfriend place but then I remember, he’s asked me to move in.

  I’m all ready and waiting so I take my bag downstairs and make myself a drink while I wait for Ryder. My mum and dad are in the kitchen and they smile when they see me.

  “Oh you look stunning.” My mother fusses.

  “Beautiful.” My dad smiles.

  There’s a knock on the door and my heart flips. My mum mirrors my huge smile and I disappear to answer. I’m so happy to see Ryder, he’s been gone almost two weeks and it’s felt like a lifetime to me. How have I gone from hating the man to hating being apar
t from him in such a short amount of time?

  I yank open the door and feast on the sight of Ryder. He still has the short beard from not shaving whilst being away. He looks even more dangerous and I itch to get my hands on him.

  Smiling at one another, I jump into his open arms and I shiver at the sound of his deep groan. “Fuck I’ve missed you.”

  I lean back and grab his face. “I’ve missed you too.”

  I lean in and Ryder matches me, we kiss passionately in the doorway to my parents’ home.

  “You ready to go?” Ryder almost growls. “Because if we carry on, I won’t be able to do anything but have you right here.”

  His words have me shaking. It’s true, I could have sex with him right here if I really wanted to but I’m not that too far gone that I don’t see sense. I can’t have my parents or anyone else catching us right here.

  “Then let’s go.” I giggle. Taking his hand and pulling him along to his car. He picks up my bag for me and throws it in the back of the car.

  “Pops, you look amazing.” Ryder’s eyes wonder all over my body. Ryder pushes me against the door to his car before I have a chance to get in. He kisses me again and I come undone. “Fucking gorgeous.”

  “Let’s go and get something to eat because the sooner we do, the sooner we can get naked.” I push him away a little so I can have a clear well. “Now feed me.”

  He smirks and damn he looks so sexy. “What my woman wants, my woman gets.”

  Ryder opens the door for me and once I’m sat inside he closes it. I watch him walk in front of his car, my body warms and vibrates with the need for him. If I had it my way, we would skip the food and then order food to the house when we satisfied ourselves. Ryder gets in the driving seat but before we leave he leans over and kisses me once again and I can’t take anymore. Screw the food, I need Ryder right now.

  “Let’s go to your place.” I suggest.

  “I thought you wanted food first?” Ryder smirks knowingly.

  “Yes well, you keep teasing me and now I want you before food.” I reach over place my hand over his jean covered cock. It jumps under my touch and I giggle, giving it a little squeeze. “Take me to your place and we can have a little play before we eat.”

  “Or we can play and eat at the same time.” Ryder winks and then begins driving. I grin wickedly.

  Ryder keeps reaching over and pinching my nipple or squeezing my knee as he drives. When we arrive at his house he leans over towards me, but instead of letting him kiss me, I jump out the car. With an amused expression, Ryder gets out too and meets me at the front door.

  “It seems a shame that you got all dressed up but nowhere to go.” Ryder watches me with hungry eyes, they look dark and serious.

  “I wouldn’t say that.” I walk down the hall and into the living area. “You seem to like it.”

  Laughing, I sit on the sofa. The one and only sofa he has here and Ryder quickly joins me. Sitting close, he leans in and tucks my hair behind my ear. Goode bumps run all over me.

  “Fuck I’ve missed you Pops.” He leans his head on mine and I close my eyes. I soak him in and smile to myself. I’m so happy in this moment, I won’t let anything spoil it.

  Ryder begins to kiss me and it’s as if someone has lit a switch. If I thought I was horny in the car then I was wrong. I need to feel close to Ryder, I want to crawl over him and claim him but I’ll have to settle with being normal and sitting on his lap, which is awkward in my skirt so I lift it up to my waist so I can straddle Ryder just how I want to. Our kisses are heated and Ryder hands wonder up my skirt and squeeze my arse cheeks. Making me groan into his mouth. I can feel his rock hard cock and I begin to grind against him.

  “I want to see you.” He groans, so I get up from his lap and stand. I remove my skirt, letting it fall to the floor and then I slip out the bodysuit. My breasts are on full display as I didn’t need to wear a bra under the bodysuit.

  Ryder stands from the sofa, not removing his eyes from me. My nipples are hard and begging for his attention. He removes his shirt and then unbuttons his jeans, they join my clothes on the floor. Now we both stand in our underwear, me in my thong and him in his boxers, his hard cock pushing against them. He pulls me close, with no space between us and devours my mouth. His cock feeling like a steel pipe on my belly. I dig in my nails, needing him with urgency.

  Without warning, he pinches my nipples and I moan loudly. “Ryder.”

  With a wicked laugh, pulls me back as he returns to the sofa, making me sit. Ryder gets down to his knees, pulling my thongs from me and spreading my legs. Within seconds his tongue is tasting me, with his fingers fucking me at the same time. I cling onto his head and thrust, matching the strokes of his tongue. His longer stubble adding extra friction and I can’t seem to open my eyes. In too much pleasure to think straight.

  Yelping in surprise, Ryder lifts me from the sofa and then turns us around. He’s now sat on the sofa and he sits me on top of him. His cock now hitting my wanting pussy.

  Ryder looks right up at me, holding me in place. “I love you Pops.”

  And before I can do or say anything, he pulls me down on his cock and I scream. Fuck me that felt amazing. I grind on him, his dick hitting all the right places. Ryder holds my waist, helping me to fuck him and it’s just what I need. I’m so glad we chose to do this rather than go for food.

  “I love you too.” I reply, bouncing on his cock. “Missed this.” I go faster and Ryder matches me. His cock hits deeper and quicker. I feel the fire building and I tell him. “I’m going to come.”

  Ryder growls. “Then come!”

  We go faster, groaning so loud that our voices echo is this big and almost empty house.

  “Ryder!” I yell, my head tilting back as I bite down on my bottom lip and ride through my release. Not bothering to hold back my satisfied squeals. Ryder stills right after, joining me in absolute bliss and letting loose of his grunts. I smile as I then collapse onto his chest. Closing my eyes and letting my heart slow back down.

  When I’m ready, he helps me get up and sit beside him. “Now I need food.”

  He laughs, helping me to stand so I can go and clean up. “I’ll get the menus.”

  Chapter Seventeen

  Poppy

  I had an amazing weekend at Ryders. Thinking about it, most of my time spent there I was naked. What’s the point in getting dressed when you’re just going to want each other naked soon enough? We had some time to make up for and boy was it a wild ride!

  Thoughts of the baby kept popping into my head and I had to try and put to the back of my mind. I was honestly scared of ruining the moment and I know that was selfish of me. I will round to telling him soon. I promise.

  When I’m apart from Ryder I am determined to tell him about the baby but when I’m with him and he looks at me in a certain way, I just can’t do it. I’m a wimp.

  It’s 10am on a Monday when my phone starts to ring and I don’t recognise the number. I don’t usually answer calls from strange numbers but I am expecting to hear from the midwife any day now.

  “Hello?” I answer, slightly agitated as to who is calling.

  “Hi is this Poppy?” Comes a gentle voice from the phone.

  “Yes.” I answer becoming really nervous.

  “Hi Poppy, I’m Lilly, your appointed midwife. I will be with you throughout your pregnancy.”

  “Oh great, hi.” I smile wide even though she can’t see me.

  “Hi.” She giggles. “So I’ve looked at your notes from the doctor and that she thought you might be twelve to thirteen weeks along.”

  “Yes.” I nod.

  “Ok so can you come in tomorrow?” She asks and completely shocks me.

  “Tomorrow?”

  “Yes, you normally have a first scan around now and we don’t really want to make you wait any longer. So once you have had your first midwife appointment then we can get all that sorted for you.” She explains.

  “Yes I’ll be there, thank you.�
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  The calls ends after discussing time slots, but all I keep thinking about is telling Ryder. I’ll get this out of the way and then I’ll tell him. I’m sure he wouldn’t be bothered about the midwife appointment anyway but he would want to come to the scan, I’m assuming so anyway.

  “Mum?” I call as I make my way downstairs.

  She pops her head around one of the doorframes. “Yes?”

  “Are you busy tomorrow because I have an appointment that I’d like you to come with me for?” I avoid telling her exactly what it is just in case my dad or brother are around.

  My mum walks closer with a slight frown. “What for?”

  “Midwife.” I whisper and her eyes widen.

  “Of course.” She nods. “But what about Ryder?”

  “I’ll tell him after the appointment, I promise.” I add when she gives me a non-approving look. “The next one will be the scan and he’ll know before then.”

  She agrees to come with me and I text Luna asking her too but she hasn’t replied yet. I do feel guilty for not having Ryder know and come with me but truthfully, I’m petrified of things changing.

  ***

  The next morning I wake with terrible morning sickness but I’m also really nervous for my first midwife appointment, so it could be that. I hate needles and my mum has already made the mistake telling me that I’ll have some blood samples taken.

  It’s pretty much the same process as the doctors, we wait until I’m called for and then I’m asked a lot of questions as she fills in a booklet.

  “Ok so I have you at fourteen weeks.” The midwife grins. She looks like she’s in her 40’s with tight curly brown hair and a permanent smile. “But you say that your last period was really light and shorter than normal”? I nod. “There’s a chance you could be a little further but we won’t know that for sure until your scans.”

  Then it’s onto the dreaded bloods and oh my god I hated it. She wanted four little tubes full of my blood and after she was done I felt really light headed. Luckily for me my mum was prepared and handed me a chocolate bar.

  “I was the same.” She giggles and the midwife gives her a thumbs up.